My Story: Struggling With Masturbation By: Omar Toutounji

What does Islam say about masturbation, Is it Haraam, is there any method to cure the addiction? These are some questions that goes through most teenager’s minds.

Whipping the One-Eyed Wonder, jerking off, jacking off and pumping the moisture-seeking venomous throbbing python of love are all common terms of the widely practiced worldly pleasure called “masturbation”. Masturabtion off is a colossal problem in today’s Muslim community, and so you ask “what’s making it a big problem?” Its normality in modern society. Surveys, conducted in the United States, show that 95% of men admit to masturbating, compared to 89% of women. After reading those facts, any Muslim would say “Oh everyone’s doing it, why shouldn’t I? It looks pretty normal and, after all, it’s not like I’m harming anyone or anything?” Wrong. Those are Shaytan’s persuasive thoughts. Jacking off is forbidden and very unhealthy.

{“And those who guard their chastity (i.e. private parts, from illegal sexual acts). Except from their wives or (the captives and slaves) that their right hands possess, – for them, they are free from blame. But whoever seeks beyond that, then those are the transgressors.” 23.5-7} Here’s my story:

It all started when I was 13 years old. I never knew what Masturbation meant but I knew it was deemed as extremely inappropriate. So I decided to approach my fellow preadolescence classmates instead of my parents as I thought they would punish me for starting such improper discussion. When I went to discuss it with my circle of school friends, I coincidentally found them already discussing the topic. Immediately, I realized it was a big NO-NO and that they had learned it from their relatives. Later that day, one of them personally came up to and told me that he lied and tried it but he said even though it hurt a lot, he felt a slight ticklish feeling of pleasure which lead him to do it monthly, then weekly, then daily. Months passed by and the majority of my classmates started doing it proudly and happily, recommending everyone else to do it and giving helpful tips like including graphically inappropriate videos to the mix, so I thought to myself, what the heck?

That question demolished my life. I jerked off for three consecutive years, making it more addictive month by month, week by week and day by day. It was the worst and most sinful timeline of my life. Even though I always felt physically and mentally weak, I was constantly ready and excited to do any single thing related to sexuality just to increase that never-ending crave for artificial pleasure and the more I increased it, the more I looked forward to it. It became so destructive that my brain, as a whole, was only committed to sex and nothing but sex. I really hated jerking off; I hated the fact that I couldn’t stop even after promising myself a whole lot of times that I’d never do it again.

Masturbating loved me so much it forced me to break my own promises. The holy month of Ramadan was around the corner. I realized that this month would be my best chance to stop this drug. I made a plan to completely stop in Ramadan by asking AIlah for help but I knew you can’t SINCERELY ask Allah for help if your Imaan is weak to begin with. No matter how strong your Imaan is, we pickle-ticklers have weak Imaan. Admit it. I used to pray 1-2 times a day so I decided to get closer to Allah by trying to pray five times a day. I achieved that by mid-Ramadan and already felt a wave of relief crashing into my body. I started fearing Allah more and more until I finally felt guilty enough to ask Him for help.

Finally, I sincerely promised Him to never do it again and asked for help to accomplish it with ease. And I never did it again Just like that. I was addicted to this drug for three full years and just by sincerely asking Allah for help, I completely stopped which is miraculous if you ask me. Ever since that promise, I’ve been leading such a grateful and productive life, I don’t even listen to music and that’s coming from a seventeen year old.

My writing of this article proves the openness of my mind after a deep-sleep for three complete years. To all the Muslims that tickle their pickle: Stop. Stop immediately by solely following Allah’s orders and fearing His punishment, lowering your gaze and avoiding the illusion that masturbation is permissible because it prevents you from committing illegal sexual acts (Zina). Allah is always watching you anytime and anywhere {Indeed Allah is ever watching you. Quran,4:1}. Don’t you feel shameful and embarrassed now not realizing that you are directly disobeying your Creator while He’s watching you (while doing it) and not knowing the fact that humans were only made to worship Allah? Your death is getting closer by each breath you take so stop it now, ask your Creator for help and repent before it’s too late.Allah always listens and is the Most-Forgiving:

{And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me – indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided. The Cow, 2:186}.

I also recommend to read this book by Yasmin Mogahed “Reclaim Your Heart”. Check it out on Amazon through this link: Reclaim your heart

Inshallah, this video might make you stop alone: For any help on how to stop this “Drug” please contact me at You’ll lead a better life.

By: Omar Toutounji


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